I've been working on walking away from the computer when Addison wants to play and letting her "help" with things like the dishes (even though it makes things harder and a bigger mess), taking her to the park most days and making better decisions when buying groceries. (like going organic, staying away from sugar and processed foods) While all these are good, I still feel like I'm poisoning her mind. This is why I've been so torn. If I watch it, its one thing, because I'm used to it or its my struggle to deal with and I'm less likely to change. If Addison is listening to it, weather it be a cuss word here and there or a sex scene or people yelling at each other, it gets under my skin... but is it enough to change? Yes I want to shelter my child and yes she needs to know what the world is like but she needs to know FIRST that these things are not alright with God and she will only learn that through Brian and my examples. Brian doesn't struggle at all with this particular issue. He could care less about TV.
So, what's the problem? I've got a conviction. I know what I need to do. So, why don't I just do it? Because I don't want to. It's as simple as that. I am a two year old that wants to satisfy my sinful nature. I don't want to challenge myself to even go a week with out TV because I feel like life is already hard enough right now. And while being stuck at home with no car, being 31 weeks pregnant with a toddler, and not having any help for all but a few hrs at night might be hard, its not as hard as what Christ did for us. He was tempted. He wanted to choose an easier path... but did he? No.
So I make this commitment: For a week: I will not watch anything that does not bring Glory to God (goes for reading books too). I will read my bible more. I will only get on Facebook when Addison is sleeping. I will play worship music if I need to listen to something instead of a show/movie.
WISH ME LUCK!